the world was a thing of fire

tom killion, bolinas ridge sunset
what do you see
in the park todayÂ
walking slowly  very slowlyÂ
I can hear an owl  a crowÂ
children playing soccerÂ
and music from somewhereÂ
don't know whereÂ
all of those gifts just with my earsÂ
now open your eyes jamesÂ
look
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a silence so lovely that even the forest smilesÂ
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zazen
dawn sittingÂ
I breathe in peaceÂ
I breathe out anxietyÂ
letting it go
aaahÂ
in this life I am a simple manÂ
breathingÂ
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the summer that the world burned
because
the world was a thing of fire
I had nowhere to go
but down my skin
had not yet hardened
into steel like now and I
was still just a boy of seven summers
our house was rented
and made of paper
and when my father set a flame to it
there was much to explain
an atonement was needed called for
and never actually happened we lived in ash
and smoke my mother my sister and I
my father went away
after carving up our pitiful dreams
with a bowie knife and then he made love
to sin itself I needed him to explain to me
what it meant the fire the carving why
I had to be so torn but I didn't have the words
to ask him this it required a language
that was beyond my timid skills and so I lived
that way for many years below
the earth below the scorched
sky silent when it was time to speak
speaking when it was time
for silence hating my father
loving him and needing
something
that I couldn't ask for
something
that he didn't have to give
by james lee jobe
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"Sometimes your joy is the source of your smile, but sometimes your smile can be the source of your joy."Â
 ThÃch Nhất Hạnh
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