When did I open the door?

Meditating in the garden, I empty out
My too-busy mind for a little while -
It's not nirvana, but it's not bad.
No nirvana is nirvana, I decide.
Look at me! I'm the Buddha
Of Blackburn Drive in Davis, California.

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A dragonfly, black
and gold, circles my window.
Life - perfect, gorgeous.

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When did I open the door?
I put my arms around her that first time
and hope…